36. If they stop loving you, I won’t stop loving you.

23. Tomorrow comes to take me away, I wish that I could stay.

FACT: I have already given up painting. I have this weird season in my drawing skills where at times I don’t know how to draw and then suddenly I don’t know how I did such a thing.

This is a fast watercolor painting I did for my nephew. We didn’t have the time to do a painting together though, but I know we will - soon.
I know this is a rushed work, but when I think of things and scenarios to paint right now, it just doesn’t show anymore. He was lucky I had the motivation to do this. :>

20. I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind. I can never leave the past behind.

FACT: With this song, I was inspired to start a novel, which I am still into doing it.

I always have this feeling of holding things back, and it’s crazy when something that you felt before is creeping back inside you. And then you will begin to realize, the people that walk past you have already moved on, that things are now different with them, and you’re not a part of it anymore. Yet, pains pave to better things, right? That’s what this song is all about.

And I understood it just now because I watched a series where this song was a background. ‘Twas really moving. :))
Anyway, this is one of the few songs I will forever be in love with, so, please enjoy.

Regrets collect like old friends here to relive your darkest moments.
‘Cause I like to keep my issues drawn. But it’s always darkest before the dawn.
And I’m ready to suffer and I’m ready to hope
It’s a shot in the dark and right at my throat

16.The Design plate I’m currently doing pressures me a lot, making me more prone to procrastination.

I need to calm down, that’s why I did this.

13. They paved paradise, and put up a parking lot.

Dear anonymous reader,

I am now writing to you not because I know you, or you know me (maybe you do). I just want to clear my head of things. First, is that I have finished my ebook and movie of The Perks of Being A Wallflower which is the inspiration of this letter for you. But I’m not going to go through the details because it’s something beyond explainable. Second, is that I’m still tired of everything in school, and actually, I want to go home right now. Third, is that although I think I’m just an average person, some people think that I’m not, which is a good reason for me to hold on right now.

Anyway, to tell you the truth, I don’t know what to feel sometimes. I know I am a bipolar and I have dual personality - I have always dreamed of becoming successful one day, and then feeling tired of routines on the other. But what I have learned today was something special. You know when you’re feeling tired like no one’s there for you? And then, there would be a phone call for you from an old friend whom you thought you haven’t missed but you did? It’s nice to know that someone still thinks and still wants to reconnect with you, even just for a while.

So now you might ask, “What’s your point?” Well, here it is…
Life has it’s way of surprising you, which will make each day special. You just have to look into those little details before the whole picture, for the content of it won’t be that special or magical or whatever you want to call it if it has no meaning.

Happiness is a choice, you know? If you want to, there are a thousand reasons for you to choose from. That’s why I am writing you this - because it made me feel better. I am happy to know that you’re reading this, even if I don’t know you. Also, as a way of appreciation, I present you a photo of a miniature model I took a few days ago. It reminds me of the song Fast Car, but that’s too overrated to put another verse of it that’s why I put a song from the Counting Crows instead. Hope you like it.

Love always,
Yan